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I think it's just adorable, starting each entry with a lyric. There's tons floating around in my head, anyways..

I love this BSB song. I mean, it's the Backstreet Boys.. I liked them in the fourth grade, for god's sakes. This song's phenomenal, though. If and when I get another boyfriend.. and they sing it or play it for me.. I'd feel a HUGE amount of love for them. Just unbelievable.

I wanna put a cute download-song thing on the side, where the diaryring is. I haven't the foggiest how, though.

Once I find somewhere to upload my graphic, I'll throw it on and get my diary reviewed. :oD

Boys suck. Well, not literally, that's the girls' job. lmao, I couldn't resist. Why do they all have to be so cute, when in most cases the not-so-cute or taken ones are sweeties? geez.

lol, I noticed Sel writes about real life, and cool stuff. I don't have much of a life.. but I'd gladly post some juicy tidbits, but I'm afraid of being found.

I should be writing this shit in my *real* diary, but I don't. I don't know what I'll do.. I don't wanna just sit down and start jotting it down from this diary.. that's time-consuming. I wanna keep a diary, to look back on when I'm older.

I was thinking.. what if I'd never flicked on a computer in the first place? Would my online friends be any different, would their lives be at least a stitch better or worse.. different? hmm.

I've thought about suicide before. Believe me, no matter how dark or hopeless it's gotten-- it has gotten REALLY dark-- I never actually thought of killing myself. I just thought about how I'd do it, and what their reactions would be. I'd never ever do it though.. believe me.

I was also thinking about what would happen if I was just to die one day.. would me friends miss me? Would the "popular" people even care? who would come to my funeral? Would my online people miss me, or wonder where I am? I mean, there it'd go. Unless they decided to stalk me, that is. If you lose contact with me for like 4 months.. and I'm not mad at you or anything.. stalk me. Come down to Canada and stalk me. lol, am I creeping you out yet? :oP That was just a little peek into my twisted mind. Hope you enjoyed. :oD

then + now