You know what bites? Being female. I mean, you get to be all sexy and smell good most of the time, but it's pure fucking agony for four days out of the month. Man, am I bitchy. I want to be a guy. If I was a guy, I'd perv over all of the girls. Which I already do, so it's not that different. But I'd be a hot guy, I'll bet. And showers would be so fun. *grin* Okayyy... Friday Five time...

1. What holiday or holidays do you celebrate this time of year?
Uh, Christmas? And Crys Appreciation Month, where everyone compliments and loves me. Oh, wait, that happens year-'round! ^^
2. What was the best gift you have ever received?
A big-assed basket full of bath bombs and soaps. They made baths so luxurious. As you can tell, price doesn't matter much to me.
3. What was the worst gift you've ever given?
Probably a weird old-granny nightgown. It was weird. They obviously don't know that I wear a bra and shorts to bed most of the time.
4. Where will you be celebrating the holidays? Are you hosting? Going away?
Staying at home, no relatives. Shopping trip in Edmonton on Boxing Day.
5. If you could spend the holidays with someone who isn't around, who would it be with? Why?
I doubt this is what they meant, but I wish I could spend time with Former-Crush outside of school. It would be amazing to just talk to him about everything, leisurely. I'm pretty lonely during the holidays.

Well, school is over. Christmas break. 16 days with no classes, hot guys, and getting by on 6 hours of sleep because I forgot to do my homework. No more. Temporary break. These are the things I plan on doing during break:
1. Rent as many movies as humanly possible and watch them during all hours of the night, while gulping down Diet Pepsis and lifting weights.
2. Exercise. I MUST do cardio at least 4-5 times a week, like I did during summer.
3. Grooming. I want to change my eyebrow barbell, get gel nails (so sexy!), put a cream rinse in my hair, and hopefully buy some new bath stuff and clothes.
4. Update Surreal like a madwoman, adding all sorts of funky stuff and hopefully choosing someone to help me with it.

I rented a ton of movies. Shallow Hal, Slackers, Dazed and Confused, Beyond The Mat, and A Walk To Remember. AWtR makes me cry. Last time I rented it (in July), I cried five times. I cried so hard when Jamie said "I don't want to lose you" to Landon. Ugh, even thinking about it makes me cry. Oh gosh, I can't talk about it! I'm all teary-eyed now. >:

*sigh* Five days until Christmas, and I don't feel jolly or excited. It's really pretty sad. I miss the days when my heart would pound and I wouldn't even be able to sleep on Christmas, I was so excited. Now I sleep 'til noon, open my pressies, and freak out, but the jolliness isn't there. The magic from when I was a little kid is gone. Oh well.

I'm addicted to forums. I post on the message boards every single frickin' online second I have. And I post at four all the time. I'm so frickin' addicted to Nightly that it's not even funny.

Mm, so what else? I talked to Former-Crush last week. This is what was said:
Him: Hey Crystal
Moi: Hey (My heart is pounding like nuts.)
Him: It's the music, isn't it?
Moi: Uhh, what is?
Him: Your eyebrow! The music made you pierce it! Too much Papa Roach for you! How's their new album, anyway? I haven't bought it yet
Moi: (laughs) It's good - there's less rap, though, so it's not as good as the last one.
Him: Oh. Well, that sucks. Rap is awesome. (We go opposite ways, as we've been walking the whole time.) Well, see ya around!
Moi: (laughs) Yep!

Heart = melty. I love him. Love looking at him, listening to him, being told he wants to "do" me, everything. He's so sexy. On that note, I've realized that I have a thing for chubby guys. F-C has the perfect body. He's tall but he has the cutest little chubby tummy. And I would know, I spent far too much time checking him out last year.

Hmm. Nothing of interest happened today. I want some clothes, dammit! I almost got frostbite on my ears and neck this morning, didn't have lunch, and am drinking my third Pepsi of the day. Hey, I slept six hours last night, I need a sugar fix to keep me going.

Oh yeah, my friend and I almost got hit by a car. But that was the car's fault, dammit. Fucking teenagers, shouldn't have a fucking license.

Man, I hope they never give me a license. I'd be hella dangerous on the road.

So I already have a new layout ready and raring to go when Christmas-Stacy is not longer fitting. It's blue, it's sexy. Yay!

I want Former-Crush. So much. God, he's so perfect. He has so many flaws, but they make him even more perfect. If that makes sense. I'm tired. It's time for a bubble bath! Whee!

then + now